‘To See More’

I sat in the stuffy room till I couldn’t take the parchedness of my throat anymore. The idea of water though eternally brilliant for anything parched seemed brilliant but boring. So I decided to step out. I decided to step out of the room simply to see some life, hear people talk and move. And that is exactly what I did. Looking back it seems that it was not the throat that was parched. Quite obviously if it wasn’t the throat that was parched it must have been something else. I know what this something else is. Looking back it now seems that I stepped out of the stuffy room merely to observe people. I felt this need for observation because something had changed in my understanding of people and quite naturally I wanted to step out of the room to try and understand what exactly had changed. I still haven’t figured out what that is. But I intend to find out. Just like I intend to take responsibility of all success and failure and all victory and loss.

Though things are looking up they are looking up rather slowly. Yes it is a matter of patience, like catching fish, to hang in there with this observation business and ultimately to see more. To see more than an ordinary person can see whose ordinariness lies in the fact that he has never been initiated in life, to see more.

Till very recently I used to think that it is easy to understand the behavior of human beings by simply observing them and then asking ‘Why?’ but now since I have begun to see more, I think the actual challenge is in observing because I have a feeling that what is being observed is merely the tip of the iceberg. And to make matters look bleaker what is being interpreted in terms of ‘Why?’ is a fraction of what is being observed.